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(Intro)
Xzela:
This is it, isn't it?
Clench of fist, decision imminent
Said we'd never quit
I guess we did
It's a bitch, although we were always risking it
You and I had a time, though
I swear to you I'll only sing the high notes
I toss and turn at night
Not outta mind, just outta sight
This is it, this is where the story really ends
I zip my lips, hit the bricks and cope with silly quips
Isn't it?
No one's getting in
Need equipment, I'm building more than just four walls around this prison
Luna Bruja:
I've been making up scenarios inside my head
Nothing seems to fill this void, I'm hanging by a thread
And I'd like to think that maybe you'd be better off without me
But the truth is likely that I'll probably let the heartbreak ground me
I'm hoping this time that I'll finally get my shit together
I die a little knowing that this goodbye means forever
I cross my fingers in the hopes that you will find me again
But this is permanent, isn't it?
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2. |
Feels [Prod. Jxxbx]
04:43
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(Feels)
Xzela:
Tiptoe
It's alright
Luna Bruja:
Take this mask off and you're scared to look me in the eyes
Your worried glances only make me overanalyze
There's a reason that I hide behind this strange disguise
Spent my whole life kickin' dirt and chasin' butterflies
Six feet under sounded comfortable a couple times
My only vice was to make a mark before I die
But why continue, just to take a pill and live a lie?
Can't even tolerate myself
I feel dehumanized
Am I being punished for knowing too much?
Beat myself up, use my pain as a crutch
Surrounded by love, but I can't get in touch
Feel everything, but I don't feel enough
Xzela (Chorus):
Even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark
You have lived through all of your worst days this far
One of these days, you'll realize how beautiful you really are
Someday, you will know that you are more than just your scars
Oh, oh, oh, alright
Xzela (Verse):
I don't care what ya think
I'm standing in the mirror, bloody knuckles on the sink
I'm looking at myself; Am I seeing what you're seeing?
Sometimes I don't feel human being
Tell me what I wanna know
Tell me, will these feelings ever go?
Away, away, away, away, away, away, away, away
Away, away
Do you really wanna know how many times I've found myself
Crying all alone?
And, if you called, I won't pick up the phone
Convinced myself it's easier to deal with on my own
Xzela (Chorus):
Even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark
You have lived through all of your worst days this far
One of these days, you'll realize how beautiful you really are
Someday, you will know that you are more than just your scars
Oh, oh, oh, alright
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(Colorblind)
Xzela (Verse 1):
I'm just floating
Undulating with the waves in the ocean
The crashing is setting my emotions in motion
And it's not with ease that I can rest my soul
I gotta tendency to provoke my notions
I could drown right here, I suppose
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
Shake me to my core
I want more, want more
I knew you before
The door was closed and I fell short
Luna Bruja (Verse 2):
Nights out with the lights out, feeling jaded
Wake up in the morning in the bed that I created
Face down, drown it all out, feeling wasted
Insomniac, sanity is overrated
Starving artist, always feening for the knowledge
Gotta grind 'cause I never went to college
Just hope my words can epitomize symbolic
I'm more concerned about my mind than my wallet
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
I made a sacrifice
I've made my bed tonight
I think I've lost the fight
It'll be alright, it'll be alright
Xzela (Verse 3):
Are you feeling blue?
Did you find another version of yourself that was lost inside of you?
What'd ya do?
Nice to meet ya, but darling I can't read ya
Or what you speak of
Well I guess I'll see ya
'Cause I'm gonna be outta reach
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
Empty ultimatum
Dead and dry verbatim
I could never save them
All my trust obliderated
Luna Bruja (Verse 4):
Sentimental heathen, face to the fire
Parody of tragedy, meaningless desire
False satire, head out the window
Pill for every ill, but there's no cure for a gift though
Hands in the air screaming "God forsake me"
Praying that the devil doesn't come and take me
Hoping that the pressure won't collapse and break me
Going down swinging let the night create me
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
I have fallen into
This hole I never meant to
Asshole, I never meant you
Oh, darling, what's the issue?
Xzela (Verse 5):
You seem like a lonely fellow
The sky is pink and yellow
So why don't you say hello?
Darkness should be coming back soon to resume the feud
Take the light from the moon
Then reverse it, re disperse it, render your mind and leave you feeling worthless
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
I just need some time
Seeking peace of mind
In breathing deep, I find
I realize and I realign
Luna Bruja (Verse 6):
I don't wanna die and have 'em say I lived a quiet life
I can't decide if my soul is worth the sacrifice
I've realized I should really take my own advice
Forfit the toll to play it safe but still I pay the price
Empathy is bittersweet, I'm feeling cold emitting heat
I'm sweating bullets, grinding teeth, seeing red, I'm incomplete
Light the fire, feel the heat, choke on smoke remain a freak
Open minded, sweet release, close my eyes just hope I sleep
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(The Battle)
Luna Bruja:
Baby I'm dedicated, and I know you're patient
I know you understand but I just hate to keep you waiting
Love is an understatement, I underestimated
All the time it took to make it work, I know it's complicated
I just know how labels change things
I don't like to put limits on myself cause I got big dreams
I gotta do this for me but I don't wanna lose ya
Don't wanna hurt ya but don't wanna promise I'm your future
I'm very hard to be with, I'm sure that you're aware
Don't want you taking it personal if I can't be there
It's never been easy, and I respect your needs
Never expected all these blessings to just happen to me
I'm just grateful that we both opened our eyes this morning
When you're a butterfly you don't realize that you're transforming
I wanna reach my full potential and I'm slowly growing
Just know I'm thankful for prudential care you always showed me
All that time I was in a cocoon
Just a flower that was waiting to bloom
Loving you was like the rain that I needed,
I wanted to be free and I finally succeeded
Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus):
It's a war between the heart and mind
It's a battle inside, a battle inside
When passion and emotion just start a fight
It's a battle inside, a battle inside
It's a battle, it's a battle, it's a battle
It's a battle inside, a battle inside
Xzela:
Kinda feels like I've been caving in
i can't get away from sinnin'
I know the situation is wrong
So tell me, why would I stay in it?
Problems, I know I got 'em
Spent my whole life tryna find a way to solve 'em
Start dissolving em' like I'm evolving
Then all of a sudden I hit rock bottom
I wanted to be your only one, but now that's impossible
I wanted to be your only one, I guess I gotta cut my losses though
I don't care too much about where I'm gonna go
Care too much about where I'm gonna stay
Doctor, doctor, fix me up so I can hit the road
I got nothin' else to say
I wanna take my time, my time
Ya wanna take my mind, my mind
Putcha hands in the air one time, one time
It's my mind, it's my life
Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus):
It's a war between the heart and mind
It's a battle inside, a battle inside
When passion and emotion just start a fight
It's a battle inside, a battle inside
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5. |
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(God Bless)
Xzela:
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I wish you were here
I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed
God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh
Luna Bruja:
Sometimes it's hard to love myself, let alone like myself
That's that shit that makes me think I'm better off by myself
Maybe one day this mirror won't get the best of me
Perhaps someday I'll see what other people claim to see
I find hard to balance between confidence and humbleness
The tragic flaw is that the line is thin and crumbling
What makes a difference if anybody else approves
If nobody can be you, better than you
I haven't always made the best decisions
But I don't regret the life that I've been given
I wanna do better, I don't wanna be a victim
Wanna be the best, gotta take it to the limit
I always said I'd make the most of it
But if I really care I gotta start showin it
I swear I'm blessed tryna make my parents proud
My head was in the clouds but now my feet are on the ground
Xzela (Chorus):
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I only know fear
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I wish you were here
I feel I'm blessed
I feel I'm stressed
I can't focus, I ain't hopeless
I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed
God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh
(Breakdown)
Xzela (Verse):
I tried to fix myself, it didn't help
Never try to be somebody else, it's bad for your health
Don't be bad for yourself, hey yah
I'm just a little bent, I'm not broken
I think I'm in a dream but my eyes are wide open
I need to build up the patience that I lack
Turn it all around and have the wind at my back
Mistakes happen all the time, maybe not as frequently as mine
Just read between the lines, dig a little deeper in my mind
I bet they wish I was a little more feminine, limited
With the pen I'm limitless
Ya know I struggle all the time, but somehow I always end up making it alright
Xzela (Chorus):
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I only know fear
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I wish you were here
I feel I'm blessed
I feel I'm stressed
I can't focus, I ain't hopeless
I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed
God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh
(Breakdown, Slowmo)
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I only know fear
Ain't got nothin'
Runnin' from love
I wish you were here
I feel I'm blessed
I feel I'm stressed
I can't focus, I ain't hopeless
I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed
God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh
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(Rain)
Xzela:
Ya know, sometimes I just think about the rain
Like, falling... In lil' droplets and shit
And how it rolls down the windowpane
Like, "Aye, what up my bitch?"
(Laughter)
I'm not gonna be sayin' this, but I'm gonna be saying some other shit that's gonna sound really good, ya know?
I'm getting caught in the rain
And I wanna feel this free forever
Ya don't know me and I don't know you
Let's take a trip, just us two
And I feel like I could die, oh
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
(Take a trip)
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
Caught in the rain
Unknown Flower:
Aye, aye, aye, aye, captain
You don't need no direction
Just follow me, I'll take you where you wanna be
Let's trip, overseas, allow your love to rain all over me
When it rains, it pours
I wanna cause a thunderstorm with you, with you
(With you)
With you, with you
(With you)
Mmmm, captain, just coast
Just coast, mmmm
Luna Bruja:
I've been stuck inside for days
Blew clouds and now I'm stuck inside a rainy daze
Wanna close up my umbrella and just let the water hit me
I've collected all my droplets in bottle
Now it's empty
Corrupt me with your thunder baby
Gotta make that presence known if you want me baby
Tidal wave, flood my senses with ya dialect
Let me predict that forecast, what's gon' happen next?
Runnin outta breath
Gimme shelter, gimme shelter, got some stormy weather
Floating like a feather taking trips when we together
I drift too deep and now I take a leap of faith, saying
Sink or swim
I'm lost in this, don't have a prayer to save me
Miir:
Now, now if we shoot up
Shoot up to mars together
Take a trip with me, we trip forever
Had this vision, vision of us after
Happily ever, ever nightcap so
Won't you ride my storm for awhile?
Until I decide to settle down
Now, now
Would you take on that vow?
I don't mind being rainy when you're around
So can we just... just splash around
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
(Take a trip)
Getting caught in the rain
(Like I could die, oh)
Caught in the rain
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(UGottaLoveMe)
Xzela (Verse):
I put that dress on that you like
Hoping I could step into your sight
Like, "Do you wanna know what's on my mind?"
Do you wanna come over to my place?
Evil in your smirk, it's alright
We can make it work, it's alright
Tension in the air's getting tight
And you been speakin' with your eyes all night
You know you're driving me insane, and
You know it's how you say my name, and
I wanna kiss you in the pouring rain
Take away your pain, like
Xzela (Chorus):
You can't just touch me
You gotta love me
You can't just touch me
You gotta love me
Luna Bruja:
Fuckin' me up with the walk and the talk
Got me all in my feelings
Already addicted, I just had one hit and I'm already feenin
I cannot play hard to get
You ain't seen nothin' yet
I'm someone you can't forget
Hope you can handle it
I know that you want me, you don't have to say it
Your eyes do it for ya
Biting your lip so your tongue doesn't slip and just make me want
More of ya
I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride
Keep you for the night, just tonight, yeah
Xzela (Chorus):
You can't just touch me
You gotta love me
You can't just touch me
You gotta love me
Xzela and Luna Bruja: (Outro)
We can make it work, it's alright
I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride
Do you wanna know what's on my mind?
I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride
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8. |
Cruel [Prod. Anti]
04:02
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(Cruel)
Xzela (Verse):
I'm feelin' cruel
I'm feelin' you
Tripping over my feet to get close to you
What's been on your mind?
I'm hoping it might be me
'Cause you've been on mine
Hey, why ya doin' this to me?
You're torturing me
Can't you see I'm barely breathing?
You left me with no words to speak
Stranded in the cold after it got heated up, oh
Xzela (Chorus):
Please don't be cruel
Honey, you know what you do
Oh, you know what ya do
Baby, don't save me
I wanna be your lady, yeah
'Cause these feelings are haunting me
Luna Bruja:
Baby's givin' me the blues,
I should have known you'd go and hurt me
That shit is old news
Thought I was doing just fine, until I met you
Don't do me any favors I can easily forget you
Don't fuck with my trust, I'm not big on lust
Just walk away now
This is not worth the fuss
I'll get over you, I'm used to being used
Always dying for love
But it never comes through
Xzela (Chorus):
Please don't be cruel
Honey, you know what you do
Oh, you know what ya do
Baby, don't save me
I wanna be your lady, yeah
'Cause these feelings are haunting me
Xzela (Verse):
I don't wanna letcha go, I just wanna letcha know
You can let your feelings show, or baby, baby
You can hit the road
I just don't have no patience for you to keep me waiting
There is no time for that, don't call me back
Luna Bruja (Verse):
I don't fucking need you, but damn do I want you
Why can't your arms be the ones that I run to?
Why do I feel like these feelings just linger?
Tangled up and wrapped so tight 'round your finger
Xzela (Chorus):
Please don't be cruel
Honey, you know what you do
Oh, you know what ya do
Baby, don't save me
I wanna be your lady, yeah
'Cause these feelings are haunting me
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9. |
Bad Habits [Prod. Horus]
03:48
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(Bad Habits)
Xzela (Verse):
I got a couple things I think I need to stop doing
I'm so indecisive, ah, I'm not good at choosin'
I don't get angry often
B-but when I do I lose it
I gotta lotta self control, it's like I rarely use it
Really want something only when I can't have it
Then let it go once I finally snag it
I got a lead foot, sometimes I move too fast
Overcorrect and then I end up crashing
Xzela (Chorus):
I don't wanna know you
I don't wanna show you
My bad habits, baby, baby
I got some bad habits
I don't wanna owe you
I just wanna move slow
Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby
Even though you got my mind racin'
Luna Bruja:
I've got some bad habits, I've got a few addictions
Caffeine and nicotine and speaking loud with no restrictions
Still taste you on my lips, so I smoke cigarettes
Thought I was coping but I never learned to deal with it
I've been told that I say sorry way too damn much
So I compensate with silence, I'm losing touch
I'm always late, do a lot less than I say
I hate to admit it but I wish you would've stayed
Xzela (Chorus):
I don't wanna know you
I don't wanna show you
My bad habits, baby, baby
I got some bad habits
I don't wanna owe you
I just wanna move slow
Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby
Even though you're on my mind lately
Xzela (Verse):
Gotta stop interrupting when other people speak
And if I keep biting my nails then I won't have any teeth
Don't tell me that I can't grab it when it's in my reach
I gotta focus on myself, I'm busy chasing down my dreams
Luna Bruja (Verse):
Always in a rush when it comes to love
Think I caught a buzz just cut me off I've had enough
I've got some bad habits, just picked up another one
You're no good for me but when you smile I come undone
Xzela (Chorus):
I don't wanna know you
I don't wanna show you
My bad habits, baby, baby
I got some bad habits
I don't wanna owe you
I just wanna move slow
Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby
Even though you're on my mind lately
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(F*ck It)
Intro Chorus by Jessie Reyez
Xzela:
You're lucky I didn't roll it, yah
You're lucky I didn't pull it, yah
You're lucky I didn't blow your brains out
You fucking cheated on me
How about that? Yah yah, yah yah
Thought you were slick as could be, that's a fact
Yah yah, yah yah
Why did I let you own me?
You'll never know me
Nah, you can't hold me back the way you used to
With the physical, the mental abuse too
Unnecessary shit you put me through
B-but I got away
I'll never go back
Thought it was picture perfect
Guess it wasn't kodak
You put your hands on me, I almost threw em' back
But I let it be and said
Fuck it, you're lucky I didn't roll it
(Chorus continues)
Luna Bruja:
You're lucky
You're lucky that I didn't kill you
That night that you spit in my face I forgave you
Opened my heart up thinking I could save you
But you never wanted the love that I gave you, nah
Can't believe I let you get all in my head
You say I'm sorry but I know you still have no regrets
I'm raising hell because I still don't think I'm over it
I raise my voice & you don't hesitate to raise a fist, but
Fuck it, 2 times for the deuces I'm chuckin'
You told me I'd always be nothing
You acting like I owe you something
Fuck it, I deserve better than that
I'm impulsive and quick to react
Bullshit you can have it all back, aye
I felt so trapped and I had to escape before shit hit the fan
Woke up one morning and thought to myself this is out of my hands
I held on too long and everything snapped like a tight rubber band
I need to get out of here, leave while I can
You never succeeded with infinite chances
You should have loved me back when ya had it but
Fuck it, you're lucky I didn't roll it
(Chorus continues to fade out)
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11. |
Real Ones [Prod. Lucid]
04:13
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(Real Ones)
Luna Bruja:
Good friends come and go like ripples in a puddle
Vibrations change and nowadays it's like I'm seeing double
I guess it's possible that I grew and you stayed the same
Never imagined after all this time I'd feel this way
Can't help but wanna go back, revisit the old you
But you're fading fast and I don't think you see the issue
Never call me even after all the shit we've been through
It kinda sucks it makes me feel like I meant nothing to you
Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus):
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
Xzela:
Ya know when I'm thinkin about the old days, it's old ways
No way, go away, no bueno
Took everything I gave ya
Just threw it away
Now you're the sore loser of the games that you played
Aye dios mio, lo siento, mi viejo amigo
Here we go, you real low, how does it feel
Why don't ya check your moral compass?
And realize that you encompass
All the putas you run with
You're a fucking walking paradox
You're off your rocker
Have you ever stopped and thought that maybe you're the one who's toxic?
I had enough of that
I tried to take the high road
I hope you're having fun watching me hit all of my high notes
Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus):
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
Luna Bruja:
My friends have seen some shit, they know me too well
I can't believe they've stuck around to see beyond my shell
I'm just so thankful that I never have to feel alone
Inside my mind because sometimes it's scary on my own
I've made some connections that I wouldn't trade for anything
They mean the world to me, a debt that I could never repay
I can't accept that I deserve the love they give me
I'm just so blessed to to have the bestest people with me
Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus):
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin
No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit
Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some
This is for the real ones, the real ones
Xzela:
How ya gonna stab me in the back
Then turn around and act like you're the one who's under attack
Naaah, fuck that
You lack more than innocence and common sense
You're ignorant and ya whole perspective is wack. No te respeto, you should probably just let go
I shoulda disarmed you from the get go
In retrospect it never mattered what you felt
Cuz I was right and you were wrong
No matter what you tell yourself
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
This is for the real ones
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12. |
Polaroids (Outro)
03:53
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(Polaroids)
Xzela (Intro and Chorus):
Ooh, ooh, oh
I'm takin' pictures of you
I'm gonna hang them in my room
On the wall where I keep all my shiny new shoes
Before I wear them thin runnin' around
Getting in these situations I've been in
Luna Bruja:
You're always taking pictures of me
I hate every single one
My stupid smile ruins everything
You're like a bullet in a gun
You make me wanna bite my tongue
Always leave me wanting more
I wanna give you something better but
There's more to be explored
I could put you in a frame
Or paint you as a portrait
I could write a song about you but
You'd probably ignore it
You're collecting polaroids
Slowly growing fonder
And baby if you want me
Take a picture it'll last longer
Xzela (Chorus):
I'm takin' pictures of you
I'm gonna hang them in my room
On the wall where I keep all my shiny new shoes
Before I wear them thin runnin' around
Getting in these situations I've been in
Xzela (Verse):
How did I miss this?
I wanna quit this
And I don't know if I really, really get this
What is this?
Can I get a witness to the sealing of the deal?
This is an order of business
You built a blanket fort for me
Carved our names into a tree
But it wasn't enough, no it's never enough for me
I don't know why, don't understand
I feel so guilty, wash my hands
It was never enough, no it's never enough for me
Sittin' here on my purple couch and
I'm thinking about how I don't have it all figured out yet
I look inside my mind and know that
I am gonna be just fine, oh, oh
Xzela (Outro Chorus):
I took the pictures of you
That I had hanging in my room
On the wall where I kept all my shaggy old shoes
I know I wore them thin
Just like me and you
And all the stupid situations we've been in
Xzela and Luna Bruja:
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
You're always taking pictures of me
(Take a picture, it'll last longer)
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Xzela Cincinnati, Ohio
Musician
Songwriter
Sound Engineer
Cincinnati, OH
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