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SadLibs

by Xzela & Luna Bruja

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1.
(Intro) Xzela: This is it, isn't it? Clench of fist, decision imminent Said we'd never quit I guess we did It's a bitch, although we were always risking it You and I had a time, though I swear to you I'll only sing the high notes I toss and turn at night Not outta mind, just outta sight This is it, this is where the story really ends I zip my lips, hit the bricks and cope with silly quips Isn't it? No one's getting in Need equipment, I'm building more than just four walls around this prison Luna Bruja: I've been making up scenarios inside my head Nothing seems to fill this void, I'm hanging by a thread And I'd like to think that maybe you'd be better off without me But the truth is likely that I'll probably let the heartbreak ground me I'm hoping this time that I'll finally get my shit together I die a little knowing that this goodbye means forever I cross my fingers in the hopes that you will find me again But this is permanent, isn't it?
2.
(Feels) Xzela: Tiptoe It's alright Luna Bruja: Take this mask off and you're scared to look me in the eyes Your worried glances only make me overanalyze There's a reason that I hide behind this strange disguise Spent my whole life kickin' dirt and chasin' butterflies Six feet under sounded comfortable a couple times My only vice was to make a mark before I die But why continue, just to take a pill and live a lie? Can't even tolerate myself I feel dehumanized Am I being punished for knowing too much? Beat myself up, use my pain as a crutch Surrounded by love, but I can't get in touch Feel everything, but I don't feel enough Xzela (Chorus): Even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark You have lived through all of your worst days this far One of these days, you'll realize how beautiful you really are Someday, you will know that you are more than just your scars Oh, oh, oh, alright Xzela (Verse): I don't care what ya think I'm standing in the mirror, bloody knuckles on the sink I'm looking at myself; Am I seeing what you're seeing? Sometimes I don't feel human being Tell me what I wanna know Tell me, will these feelings ever go? Away, away, away, away, away, away, away, away Away, away Do you really wanna know how many times I've found myself Crying all alone? And, if you called, I won't pick up the phone Convinced myself it's easier to deal with on my own Xzela (Chorus): Even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark You have lived through all of your worst days this far One of these days, you'll realize how beautiful you really are Someday, you will know that you are more than just your scars Oh, oh, oh, alright
3.
(Colorblind) Xzela (Verse 1): I'm just floating Undulating with the waves in the ocean The crashing is setting my emotions in motion And it's not with ease that I can rest my soul I gotta tendency to provoke my notions I could drown right here, I suppose Xzela and Luna Bruja: Shake me to my core I want more, want more I knew you before The door was closed and I fell short Luna Bruja (Verse 2): Nights out with the lights out, feeling jaded Wake up in the morning in the bed that I created Face down, drown it all out, feeling wasted Insomniac, sanity is overrated Starving artist, always feening for the knowledge Gotta grind 'cause I never went to college Just hope my words can epitomize symbolic I'm more concerned about my mind than my wallet Xzela and Luna Bruja: I made a sacrifice I've made my bed tonight I think I've lost the fight It'll be alright, it'll be alright Xzela (Verse 3): Are you feeling blue? Did you find another version of yourself that was lost inside of you? What'd ya do? Nice to meet ya, but darling I can't read ya Or what you speak of Well I guess I'll see ya 'Cause I'm gonna be outta reach Xzela and Luna Bruja: Empty ultimatum Dead and dry verbatim I could never save them All my trust obliderated Luna Bruja (Verse 4): Sentimental heathen, face to the fire Parody of tragedy, meaningless desire False satire, head out the window Pill for every ill, but there's no cure for a gift though Hands in the air screaming "God forsake me" Praying that the devil doesn't come and take me Hoping that the pressure won't collapse and break me Going down swinging let the night create me Xzela and Luna Bruja: I have fallen into This hole I never meant to Asshole, I never meant you Oh, darling, what's the issue? Xzela (Verse 5): You seem like a lonely fellow The sky is pink and yellow So why don't you say hello? Darkness should be coming back soon to resume the feud Take the light from the moon Then reverse it, re disperse it, render your mind and leave you feeling worthless Xzela and Luna Bruja: I just need some time Seeking peace of mind In breathing deep, I find I realize and I realign Luna Bruja (Verse 6): I don't wanna die and have 'em say I lived a quiet life I can't decide if my soul is worth the sacrifice I've realized I should really take my own advice Forfit the toll to play it safe but still I pay the price Empathy is bittersweet, I'm feeling cold emitting heat I'm sweating bullets, grinding teeth, seeing red, I'm incomplete Light the fire, feel the heat, choke on smoke remain a freak Open minded, sweet release, close my eyes just hope I sleep
4.
(The Battle) Luna Bruja: Baby I'm dedicated, and I know you're patient I know you understand but I just hate to keep you waiting Love is an understatement, I underestimated All the time it took to make it work, I know it's complicated I just know how labels change things I don't like to put limits on myself cause I got big dreams I gotta do this for me but I don't wanna lose ya Don't wanna hurt ya but don't wanna promise I'm your future I'm very hard to be with, I'm sure that you're aware Don't want you taking it personal if I can't be there It's never been easy, and I respect your needs Never expected all these blessings to just happen to me I'm just grateful that we both opened our eyes this morning When you're a butterfly you don't realize that you're transforming I wanna reach my full potential and I'm slowly growing Just know I'm thankful for prudential care you always showed me All that time I was in a cocoon Just a flower that was waiting to bloom Loving you was like the rain that I needed, I wanted to be free and I finally succeeded Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus): It's a war between the heart and mind It's a battle inside, a battle inside When passion and emotion just start a fight It's a battle inside, a battle inside It's a battle, it's a battle, it's a battle It's a battle inside, a battle inside Xzela: Kinda feels like I've been caving in i can't get away from sinnin' I know the situation is wrong So tell me, why would I stay in it? Problems, I know I got 'em Spent my whole life tryna find a way to solve 'em Start dissolving em' like I'm evolving Then all of a sudden I hit rock bottom I wanted to be your only one, but now that's impossible I wanted to be your only one, I guess I gotta cut my losses though I don't care too much about where I'm gonna go Care too much about where I'm gonna stay Doctor, doctor, fix me up so I can hit the road I got nothin' else to say I wanna take my time, my time Ya wanna take my mind, my mind Putcha hands in the air one time, one time It's my mind, it's my life Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus): It's a war between the heart and mind It's a battle inside, a battle inside When passion and emotion just start a fight It's a battle inside, a battle inside
5.
(God Bless) Xzela: Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I wish you were here I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh Luna Bruja: Sometimes it's hard to love myself, let alone like myself That's that shit that makes me think I'm better off by myself Maybe one day this mirror won't get the best of me Perhaps someday I'll see what other people claim to see I find hard to balance between confidence and humbleness The tragic flaw is that the line is thin and crumbling What makes a difference if anybody else approves If nobody can be you, better than you I haven't always made the best decisions But I don't regret the life that I've been given I wanna do better, I don't wanna be a victim Wanna be the best, gotta take it to the limit I always said I'd make the most of it But if I really care I gotta start showin it I swear I'm blessed tryna make my parents proud My head was in the clouds but now my feet are on the ground Xzela (Chorus): Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I only know fear Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I wish you were here I feel I'm blessed I feel I'm stressed I can't focus, I ain't hopeless I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh (Breakdown) Xzela (Verse): I tried to fix myself, it didn't help Never try to be somebody else, it's bad for your health Don't be bad for yourself, hey yah I'm just a little bent, I'm not broken I think I'm in a dream but my eyes are wide open I need to build up the patience that I lack Turn it all around and have the wind at my back Mistakes happen all the time, maybe not as frequently as mine Just read between the lines, dig a little deeper in my mind I bet they wish I was a little more feminine, limited With the pen I'm limitless Ya know I struggle all the time, but somehow I always end up making it alright Xzela (Chorus): Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I only know fear Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I wish you were here I feel I'm blessed I feel I'm stressed I can't focus, I ain't hopeless I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh (Breakdown, Slowmo) Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I only know fear Ain't got nothin' Runnin' from love I wish you were here I feel I'm blessed I feel I'm stressed I can't focus, I ain't hopeless I feel I'm blessed, I feel I'm stressed God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless oh
6.
(Rain) Xzela: Ya know, sometimes I just think about the rain Like, falling... In lil' droplets and shit And how it rolls down the windowpane Like, "Aye, what up my bitch?" (Laughter) I'm not gonna be sayin' this, but I'm gonna be saying some other shit that's gonna sound really good, ya know? I'm getting caught in the rain And I wanna feel this free forever Ya don't know me and I don't know you Let's take a trip, just us two And I feel like I could die, oh Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) (Take a trip) Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) Caught in the rain Unknown Flower: Aye, aye, aye, aye, captain You don't need no direction Just follow me, I'll take you where you wanna be Let's trip, overseas, allow your love to rain all over me When it rains, it pours I wanna cause a thunderstorm with you, with you (With you) With you, with you (With you) Mmmm, captain, just coast Just coast, mmmm Luna Bruja: I've been stuck inside for days Blew clouds and now I'm stuck inside a rainy daze Wanna close up my umbrella and just let the water hit me I've collected all my droplets in bottle Now it's empty Corrupt me with your thunder baby Gotta make that presence known if you want me baby Tidal wave, flood my senses with ya dialect Let me predict that forecast, what's gon' happen next? Runnin outta breath Gimme shelter, gimme shelter, got some stormy weather Floating like a feather taking trips when we together I drift too deep and now I take a leap of faith, saying Sink or swim I'm lost in this, don't have a prayer to save me Miir: Now, now if we shoot up Shoot up to mars together Take a trip with me, we trip forever Had this vision, vision of us after Happily ever, ever nightcap so Won't you ride my storm for awhile? Until I decide to settle down Now, now Would you take on that vow? I don't mind being rainy when you're around So can we just... just splash around Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) (Take a trip) Getting caught in the rain (Like I could die, oh) Caught in the rain
7.
(UGottaLoveMe) Xzela (Verse): I put that dress on that you like Hoping I could step into your sight Like, "Do you wanna know what's on my mind?" Do you wanna come over to my place? Evil in your smirk, it's alright We can make it work, it's alright Tension in the air's getting tight And you been speakin' with your eyes all night You know you're driving me insane, and You know it's how you say my name, and I wanna kiss you in the pouring rain Take away your pain, like Xzela (Chorus): You can't just touch me You gotta love me You can't just touch me You gotta love me Luna Bruja: Fuckin' me up with the walk and the talk Got me all in my feelings Already addicted, I just had one hit and I'm already feenin I cannot play hard to get You ain't seen nothin' yet I'm someone you can't forget Hope you can handle it I know that you want me, you don't have to say it Your eyes do it for ya Biting your lip so your tongue doesn't slip and just make me want More of ya I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride Keep you for the night, just tonight, yeah Xzela (Chorus): You can't just touch me You gotta love me You can't just touch me You gotta love me Xzela and Luna Bruja: (Outro) We can make it work, it's alright I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride Do you wanna know what's on my mind? I'm inviting you inside, gonna let it ride
8.
(Cruel) Xzela (Verse): I'm feelin' cruel I'm feelin' you Tripping over my feet to get close to you What's been on your mind? I'm hoping it might be me 'Cause you've been on mine Hey, why ya doin' this to me? You're torturing me Can't you see I'm barely breathing? You left me with no words to speak Stranded in the cold after it got heated up, oh Xzela (Chorus): Please don't be cruel Honey, you know what you do Oh, you know what ya do Baby, don't save me I wanna be your lady, yeah 'Cause these feelings are haunting me Luna Bruja: Baby's givin' me the blues, I should have known you'd go and hurt me That shit is old news Thought I was doing just fine, until I met you Don't do me any favors I can easily forget you Don't fuck with my trust, I'm not big on lust Just walk away now This is not worth the fuss I'll get over you, I'm used to being used Always dying for love But it never comes through Xzela (Chorus): Please don't be cruel Honey, you know what you do Oh, you know what ya do Baby, don't save me I wanna be your lady, yeah 'Cause these feelings are haunting me Xzela (Verse): I don't wanna letcha go, I just wanna letcha know You can let your feelings show, or baby, baby You can hit the road I just don't have no patience for you to keep me waiting There is no time for that, don't call me back Luna Bruja (Verse): I don't fucking need you, but damn do I want you Why can't your arms be the ones that I run to? Why do I feel like these feelings just linger? Tangled up and wrapped so tight 'round your finger Xzela (Chorus): Please don't be cruel Honey, you know what you do Oh, you know what ya do Baby, don't save me I wanna be your lady, yeah 'Cause these feelings are haunting me
9.
(Bad Habits) Xzela (Verse): I got a couple things I think I need to stop doing I'm so indecisive, ah, I'm not good at choosin' I don't get angry often B-but when I do I lose it I gotta lotta self control, it's like I rarely use it Really want something only when I can't have it Then let it go once I finally snag it I got a lead foot, sometimes I move too fast Overcorrect and then I end up crashing Xzela (Chorus): I don't wanna know you I don't wanna show you My bad habits, baby, baby I got some bad habits I don't wanna owe you I just wanna move slow Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby Even though you got my mind racin' Luna Bruja: I've got some bad habits, I've got a few addictions Caffeine and nicotine and speaking loud with no restrictions Still taste you on my lips, so I smoke cigarettes Thought I was coping but I never learned to deal with it I've been told that I say sorry way too damn much So I compensate with silence, I'm losing touch I'm always late, do a lot less than I say I hate to admit it but I wish you would've stayed Xzela (Chorus): I don't wanna know you I don't wanna show you My bad habits, baby, baby I got some bad habits I don't wanna owe you I just wanna move slow Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby Even though you're on my mind lately Xzela (Verse): Gotta stop interrupting when other people speak And if I keep biting my nails then I won't have any teeth Don't tell me that I can't grab it when it's in my reach I gotta focus on myself, I'm busy chasing down my dreams Luna Bruja (Verse): Always in a rush when it comes to love Think I caught a buzz just cut me off I've had enough I've got some bad habits, just picked up another one You're no good for me but when you smile I come undone Xzela (Chorus): I don't wanna know you I don't wanna show you My bad habits, baby, baby I got some bad habits I don't wanna owe you I just wanna move slow Don't be a bad habit, baby, baby Even though you're on my mind lately
10.
(F*ck It) Intro Chorus by Jessie Reyez Xzela: You're lucky I didn't roll it, yah You're lucky I didn't pull it, yah You're lucky I didn't blow your brains out You fucking cheated on me How about that? Yah yah, yah yah Thought you were slick as could be, that's a fact Yah yah, yah yah Why did I let you own me? You'll never know me Nah, you can't hold me back the way you used to With the physical, the mental abuse too Unnecessary shit you put me through B-but I got away I'll never go back Thought it was picture perfect Guess it wasn't kodak You put your hands on me, I almost threw em' back But I let it be and said Fuck it, you're lucky I didn't roll it (Chorus continues) Luna Bruja: You're lucky You're lucky that I didn't kill you That night that you spit in my face I forgave you Opened my heart up thinking I could save you But you never wanted the love that I gave you, nah Can't believe I let you get all in my head You say I'm sorry but I know you still have no regrets I'm raising hell because I still don't think I'm over it I raise my voice & you don't hesitate to raise a fist, but Fuck it, 2 times for the deuces I'm chuckin' You told me I'd always be nothing You acting like I owe you something Fuck it, I deserve better than that I'm impulsive and quick to react Bullshit you can have it all back, aye I felt so trapped and I had to escape before shit hit the fan Woke up one morning and thought to myself this is out of my hands I held on too long and everything snapped like a tight rubber band I need to get out of here, leave while I can You never succeeded with infinite chances You should have loved me back when ya had it but Fuck it, you're lucky I didn't roll it (Chorus continues to fade out)
11.
(Real Ones) Luna Bruja: Good friends come and go like ripples in a puddle Vibrations change and nowadays it's like I'm seeing double I guess it's possible that I grew and you stayed the same Never imagined after all this time I'd feel this way Can't help but wanna go back, revisit the old you But you're fading fast and I don't think you see the issue Never call me even after all the shit we've been through It kinda sucks it makes me feel like I meant nothing to you Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus): This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones Xzela: Ya know when I'm thinkin about the old days, it's old ways No way, go away, no bueno Took everything I gave ya Just threw it away Now you're the sore loser of the games that you played Aye dios mio, lo siento, mi viejo amigo Here we go, you real low, how does it feel Why don't ya check your moral compass? And realize that you encompass All the putas you run with You're a fucking walking paradox You're off your rocker Have you ever stopped and thought that maybe you're the one who's toxic? I had enough of that I tried to take the high road I hope you're having fun watching me hit all of my high notes Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus): This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones Luna Bruja: My friends have seen some shit, they know me too well I can't believe they've stuck around to see beyond my shell I'm just so thankful that I never have to feel alone Inside my mind because sometimes it's scary on my own I've made some connections that I wouldn't trade for anything They mean the world to me, a debt that I could never repay I can't accept that I deserve the love they give me I'm just so blessed to to have the bestest people with me Xzela and Luna Bruja (Chorus): This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones This is for the real ones that stuck it out through thick and thin No matter what, they got your back through all the bullshit Grateful for the friends I got, ya win some, ya learn some This is for the real ones, the real ones Xzela: How ya gonna stab me in the back Then turn around and act like you're the one who's under attack Naaah, fuck that You lack more than innocence and common sense You're ignorant and ya whole perspective is wack. No te respeto, you should probably just let go I shoulda disarmed you from the get go In retrospect it never mattered what you felt Cuz I was right and you were wrong No matter what you tell yourself Xzela and Luna Bruja: This is for the real ones
12.
(Polaroids) Xzela (Intro and Chorus): Ooh, ooh, oh I'm takin' pictures of you I'm gonna hang them in my room On the wall where I keep all my shiny new shoes Before I wear them thin runnin' around Getting in these situations I've been in Luna Bruja: You're always taking pictures of me I hate every single one My stupid smile ruins everything You're like a bullet in a gun You make me wanna bite my tongue Always leave me wanting more I wanna give you something better but There's more to be explored I could put you in a frame Or paint you as a portrait I could write a song about you but You'd probably ignore it You're collecting polaroids Slowly growing fonder And baby if you want me Take a picture it'll last longer Xzela (Chorus): I'm takin' pictures of you I'm gonna hang them in my room On the wall where I keep all my shiny new shoes Before I wear them thin runnin' around Getting in these situations I've been in Xzela (Verse): How did I miss this? I wanna quit this And I don't know if I really, really get this What is this? Can I get a witness to the sealing of the deal? This is an order of business You built a blanket fort for me Carved our names into a tree But it wasn't enough, no it's never enough for me I don't know why, don't understand I feel so guilty, wash my hands It was never enough, no it's never enough for me Sittin' here on my purple couch and I'm thinking about how I don't have it all figured out yet I look inside my mind and know that I am gonna be just fine, oh, oh Xzela (Outro Chorus): I took the pictures of you That I had hanging in my room On the wall where I kept all my shaggy old shoes I know I wore them thin Just like me and you And all the stupid situations we've been in Xzela and Luna Bruja: You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer) You're always taking pictures of me (Take a picture, it'll last longer)

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SadLibs is an collaborative, 13-track emotional album created by Xzela and Luna Bruja. The beauty of this album is meant to be in the eye of the beholder.

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released November 17, 2017

Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Devin Burgess.

Album Artwork: Jace Mullins

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Samuel Steezmore
Jxxbx
Serge Crown
Young Taylor
Syndrome
Beatjoven
OG Trvpr
Anti
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Abel Petit
Lucid
RDY
Xzela

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